LOG 4/3/24
Today was exhausting. I had a 1.5 hour class followed by a 3.5 hour class, with a 2 hour break in between. Which might not sound so bad but they're both in the Loop in downtown Chicago, so I can't go back to my dorm. Meaning every wednesday I'm gonna have to spend 7 hours away from my dorm just like grade school again. It's shitty and its kinda mind blowing how I did that everyday for 12 years. I could never go back.
My first class was editing and I sat next to my friend Adam who was absent last time, I found out today we were in the same class. I learned how to use Premiere Pro a bit and it definitely seems like good software. Better than what I use (Final Cut Pro). After that I ate food at the Loop's dining hall instead of the one at Lincoln Park(my campus), and I was paranoid that I'd see my ex-friend Vicky who isn't on speaking terms with me, since she mainly goes to the Loop in the dining hall. It didn't happen though.
After that I went to the building for my next class and coded this site some more while waiting for like an hour. My stomach hurt a lot and I felt sick for some reason like I was gonna throw up. Then I went into my class which was film history. Before class started I felt exhausted and fatigued and thought I might sleep through class, but after putting my head on my desk for a bit I felt better. Every kid in that class seems pretty dope and nice, and the people sitting around me were friendly and asked for my letterboxd and stuff. The professor also seems like a really funny dude. I think he'll make class very fun.
We had to introduce ourselves and one thing we had to mention was our favorite "old" movie. When it became my turn I said my favorite old movie was "birth of a nation" and then wait for a second before saying I was joking. Then the class laughed harder than I expected even though I thought the joke wasn't that funny. For context that film is one of the first ever made and its racist propaganda. In class we learned about the history of analog celluloid film which I already knew a lot about. We watched a bunch of very early stuff shot on film, and it was pretty entertaining. We watched a trip to the moon. The class energy was pretty good and upbeat, everyone was commenting on the videos which helped me not feel depressed after my exhaustion.
When class ended I got on the train home and felt like I was gonna pass out on the train. It was packed as fuck too so it was sweaty and hot. I had a headache and when I got off I was happy that it was raining and that it was cold. I ran into my friend Willa on the walk back to my dorm, we talked and as yoozh, she was nice and cool. She was a friendship that formed naturally which are always better than the ones I try to force to work(I don't do that anymore). Then I had dinner with Gram and Rohan and Rohan basically spent the whole time talking about being a CS major again. I didn't mind but I wish we talked about other stuff. He mainly likes to compare his coursework to me and Gram's.
So yeah. I'd say mood today was a 4/10.